I return to a quiet life again, a life without work schedules, without workmates, without work.
Without a regular salary.
I've never received an unemployment benefit from my local government.
I guess I never will.
I return to my cabin in the suburban woods, the meditating hermit who's been told he's a good candidate for a sales position because he's friendly and easy-going (but, unfortunately for my business friends, not motivated by profits).
For the past few months, my thoughts have fed off the cycle of the anticipation of a new job, the training and application of procedural processes, regulations and rules, and a planned exit from the temporary job back to a life of monastic frugality.
I aced an entrance exam, memorised a training manual and worked with the supervisor/crew leader to meet the decennial census project's objectives.
Like a paid vacation, I met interesting people both on the job and in the surrounding area.
Now, I am back to the new old normal way of daily routines.
No more self-imposed fears and excitement about an uncertain future as a temporary employee of an openly secretive federal government (the world's only superpower at this time?).
The future is guaranteed to be as uncertain as ever, but in a different way.
Back to my books, starting with "Fishes of Alabama" purchased at the Chattanooga Aquarium shop.
Solitude and silence.
Everything in moderation, including moderation, eh?
Time to clean out the pencil sharpener...sigh...see what the Book of the Future says the propaganda machines will do next.
There's always something new to write about, even if it no longer directly involves me.
Back to being invisible - living out my childhood dream of being a hermit in the woods.
Happiness is getting what you wished for, in droves.
To be here, thinking no one reads this but me, to see the world around me fulfill people's dreams in the calculated futures plotted by my friends and me, to not know any "why" or "wherefore," just "what" and "when" ...
To fulfill your dream, reach your destiny, and ask if that's all there is to life...so...
So...
...so let's keep dancing. Let's have some fun.
2010-05-25
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